I am taking a deliberate break from dating. I have a few reasons for the break so
let me see if I can explain.
When Joseph broke up with me it was a HUGE rejection. The person who was supposed to love me
forever walked away. Seemingly without much difficulty. It's embarrassing to admit but I desperately needed
male attention. A LOT of male attention. I recognize that I needed the
affirmation and confirmation that men still liked me. Still wanted me. That Joseph was wrong. That I was still
desirable and worthy of love.
I no longer feel that overwhelming need. I feel more
settled. Stronger. Happier.
At the same time, I don’t know exactly what I want at the
moment. I never saw myself staying in DC this long. Being in Ireland made me
realize that DC isn’t home. And I’m not sure it ever will be. Ultimately I
either need to make it home or I need to leave.
So I decided to take a break from dating. A dating cleanse,
if you will. A man-page turned man-fast. At first I thought maybe I’d do it until
2013. Now I’m unsure when I’ll
return to dating. When it feels right, I suppose.
Flingstress out. For the moment, at least.
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